What an incredible time of change and heartbreak. I am, like everyone else, watching, listening, speaking out, and many times, in tears. I can't help but see this time period as the cracking open of the vault of darkness that's been with us since the beginning of time. The only way through is through and we will get to a place of more compassion in the world. I believe we have the capacity to do so.
On a personal level, I just finished editing my book, Undercover Medium, with the help of my fabulous agent, Tina Wainscott of The Seymour Literary Agency, who is currently shopping the book with major publishers. I'm excited to see what happens over the next few months! I've gotten a few clues from the kids in spirit. They've talked about the upcoming publishing deal and life span of the book. I'm grateful to be able to get my story out there, and grateful for what it means for families whose children have passed on. I'm being shown a larger picture that I didn't see when I was writing the book and it's incredibly humbling and exciting.
Speaking of editing the book...
It's a difficult process. Each time I read back through it, I'm reliving it, but because I'm in such a different place in my life and have healed the wounds that led me to be fooled by a predator, I find myself yelling at the Kiersten in my book to wake up. It's like I'm looking at it all from the outside, now.
All of the reliving has made me think quite a bit about sociopathic predators like Jeffery Epstein. We recently watched several documentaries about him. And of course, it makes me think of my ex. Recently, I've heard more tales of my ex's predatory behavior before I came into his life. As a rational person with a conscience, I can't wrap my head around how he can attempt to manipulate women and girls, many at the same time, without an ounce of compassion or remorse. Watching the documentary about Jeffery Epstein and the series, Dirty John, helped me see the similarities and the sociopath's ability to move through life taking what he/she wants through manipulation. It seems the same darkness runs like blood through their veins. The collective darkness driving these predators is pure evil.
This particular brand of evil is so good at disguising itself to look like light. Philanthropy or taking up causes to make themselves look like upstanding citizens is a common tactic. Maybe it's in the sociopath's handbook? My ex used to talk about "walking the walk" as if he was/is actually holding himself accountable for his actions. It's a great line to use publicly, but it's something a sociopath is not capable of doing. I know this because of the countless women and teenagers, business partners, and clients that have reached out to me with stories of abuse, manipulation, and stolen goods and money.
There needs to be more information out there about sociopathic predators and with karma doing it's job with Weinstein and Epstein, I believe we're opening the vault on this darkness as well. I hope my book will help shed more light on what it means to be involved with a sociopathic predator.
Thank God light is flooding the dark places of our collective. Exposing injustice, prejudice, abuse, and predatory behavior like never before. I have so much faith in humanity and I want better for generations to come, but we do have face the darkness to get there. And we'll get there.